“Lucy, turn around and look at me,” stated the Lord.“You can’t do this anymore, you’re withering away before me, and the body I’ve given you has nothing left to barter with, nothing left to exchange.”
The reason why I haven’t taken your last breath brittle child, is because your work here on earth isn’t done yet, you still have much to do for me, much to teach and inspire. There are times, that I must choose certain individuals to bid my work, and you are one of them Lucy.”
“I don’t understand what you’re saying my Lord,” she said, “how can I, when I’m unable to care for myself?” “that’s because you’ve given me your answer before thinking or even speaking of it my frail child. The reason? I know you more than anyone else Lucy, even more than how you perceive to know yourself. You’ll hear your words to me in a minute, give it time, and your plea will come very shortly…”
“My shriveled rose,” he continued on…” as she sat there in solice, on that cold stool accompanied by her blank stare, the Lord said… “there is no higher degree in physical outer beauty; no text book or guide line that indicates how an individual should look like, that is the reason why I’ve created uniqueness, and instilled that amongst humankind, because being different, in itself is a gift. Perfection doesn’t exist Lucy, as mortal men have their own trait regarding what being pretty and handsome is.”
“Father hear me, please understand my situation, I feel so uncomfortable inside my own skin, even my bones are bothersome. Today I noticed that my hair isn’t as
shiny as it used to be in fact, it’s falling off, I’m almost bald! Last night, I couldn’t sleep because my severe stomach ache kept me awake. I’m always so horribly cold and exhausted. I’ve lost the liveliness my eyes once had, the vigor my body once possessed, and my teeth look so unsightly.” She started to cry before the Lord and said, “I’m so ugly, I can’t believe I’ve done this to myself, please forgive me father; I’ve been so ignorant and foolish, look at what I’ve done to the body you’ve given me.
“…The Lord just allowed Lucy to vent her frustration and disbelief, knowing fully that he already advised her that it was not her time to go. He remained tentative and ever so vigilant; listening to his child complain.” -Diane M. Bazail
“I can’t stop my Lord,” replied Lucy, “I don’t know how, I’ve tried so many times, only to encounter disappointment, after appalling
disappointment. Please don’t be angry with me regarding to what I’m about to say however, I don’t wish to continue living this way anymore, please take me with you; I wish to leave this place.”
I do say this… “if I was given the chance Father, to start over and help those who suffer the same fate as my own, they wouldn’t take this vile and dreadful path I’ve chosen for myself, but it’s too late for me; I can feel it.”
“Are you hearing yourself speak Lucy,” said the Lord, “remember what I mentioned earlier, how I heard your
plea before it ever entered your mind, and as to why your time hasn’t come?” “Yes,” answered Lucy, “you did mention that to me earlier, and now I understand.”
“All this time you were aiming at perfection, to be flawless and impeccable. When in reality, you were just doing the complete opposite, transforming yourself into the very thing you’ve been wanting to avoid, “imperfection.”
“Last night as you almost drowned in your own tears because you seemed unable to lift your head off the pillow, I heard your faint whisper; you called out to me wanting to change, to get better and help others. So here I am Lucy, your time has come for me to return the body I once gave you a long time ago.”
Go now, I’ve freed you of your torment.Give others the hope and inspiration to break the chain of bodily servitude and seek the help they need to heal from the inside out. You’ve been down that dark and narrow road Lucy; felt such relenting pain. I know you’ll do your best, and your decision will be wise and forthright.
“…Writing this way, is like having a piece
of heaven right here along side me, thank you Lord for your words, as they are yours; and not mine.”
-Diane M. Bazail
“…Lucy stood up to leave, as the Lord indicated that
she do, and before exiting that dark and damp room filled with sadness, hopelessness, and reverent demise, our Father restored Lucy’s health and body back to normalcy; back to it’s vibrant state, she looked as if nothing ever
happened.”
Therefore Lucy did as the Lord indicated, continued her path in helping others, as you will do the same.”
-Diane M. Bazail

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